First of all I wanna thank you for the openminded reactions to my gender experiment. I was ready for rejection, but you guys showed me that this is not an inevitability. Online I had 100% neutral to positive reactions.
This (and some other non-virtual experience) gives me the braveness to speak straightforwardly about my true gender identity: my brain, my identity is male. It has always been male.
The "why" is a big enigma to me, and it took me around 30 years to figure out my inner conflict (male identity in a female body). It made me depressed and drifting for the most parts of my life.
In my private life I am openly living as a man since the beginning of March. Lots of coming outs were pretty hard - especially with family - but all my close and long-term friends were deeply understanding and pleasant in their reactions. Complete strangers accepted my transidentity as soon as I told them that my name is Ben and I identify as male although I do not look like a man.
From the misanthrop I was before my coming out I became a much better me, and I have much more interest and fun in socializing. I have even long term motivation in doing sports and eating healthy, because now I know that one day my outer body image will most likely fit my inner one. One day I will be able to connect to my body again.
Since people are interested in medical changes: within the next 2 years, I will have hormone replacement therapy and mastektomy. How much will that change my appearence? Most likely, no one will see that I was born female. Transmen are usually not detectable as trans by society after their transition. Probably you've met some without even knowing about it.
I'm not going to answer questions about genital surgeries and if I wanna do them or not. This is private, and only the business of my wife and me.
If you'd like to ask questions about anything else, you're very welcome to do so!